Day 8 - Dying

Even though I have only been alive for 14 years, I’ve had many fears. Some of my fears such as being scared of the dark are past me, but some such as my fear of bees are still with me today. I’ve had many fears that have come and gone and some that I still have. Although I’m used to having fears, there’s one that I think I’ll probably have forever, which is the thought of dying. Dying scares me because you never really know when it’s going to happen to you or how it will happen.

I think one of my biggest fears is dying too young. If I were to die young, I would be upset because I wouldn’t be able to experience everything that I would want to in life. Although I don’t have many plans for my future so far, I would hate it if something as tragic as dying would prevent me from fulfilling my hopes and dreams. It makes me think that I shouldn’t take my life for granted and to take the chances given to me in life. Recently, a family friend of mine passed away suddenly in a car crash, and it made me rethink my perspective on life. Although a 40 year old isn’t considered ‘young, young,’ she still died way too early in life. She won’t be able to watch her kids grow old, or travel to places around the world. This made me realize that nothing’s set in stone, and something could change your life dramatically out of nowhere. I might not be necessarily afraid of dying, but instead afraid that I would miss out on things that I could do later on in life.

Although dying young is one of my fears, the way I die is important to me. I don’t want to have a long, grueling death, but instead a short, painless one. I would hate it if I were to die by drowning or burning. I wouldn’t want to have to feel the pain and agony that goes with that kind of death. It’s bad enough that I’m dying, so a discomforting one would make it even worse. Although it might be strange to think of the way you want to die, but I have thought about it a couple of times. I hope that I can die peacefully in my sleep, rather than being shot by someone, drowning, or dying because of an illness. Also, I hope that I can die after I’ve done everything that I could possibly want to do in life. Although it would be hard to accomplish everything that I will someday strive for, I hope that I can do the most to my ability.